The irony is that one reason I thought I should stop blogging (at least until I get a handle on raising 2 kids) is that I probably wouldn’t be able to fit into anything aside from muumuus, which would instantly disqualify me from being any type of ‘fashion authority’. But to my astonishment, even though my obstetrician informed me that Bub #2 is in fact bigger than Bub #1, I am still wearing non-maternity clothes at 7 months.
I still eat whatever I want and haven’t been able to exercise much this time round, but something has changed- I no longer suffer from emotional eating.
In the past, any trigger of sadness, stress or struggle would lead me to devour entire packets of chips, slabs of chocolate and tubs of ice-cream. In one sitting.
Hubby used to joke that I am on the “see-food diet” because if I see food, I had to eat it. I couldn’t stop until it was all gone. It was as if my ‘off’ switch was broken. In Gretchen Rubin’s terms, I’m a finisher, and definitely not a moderator.
Although I tried everything in my power to get rid of the bad habit: I attended health retreats, health seminars, healthy cooking courses, listened to countless health podcasts, made healthy meals, and even completed 3 online nutrition courses, I still struggled with emotional eating. In the end, I knew I had to turn to the only One who could heal me completely- God.
He did a miracle in me- He didn’t just treat the symptoms (the overeating), He healed me from the inside. We got to the root of the problem. I realized that in a way, food had become my idol, because it was the first thing I turned to every time I felt down, discouraged or dejected. So I repented. I asked God to cure my addiction to junk food and transform my tastebuds to desire healthy food.
Now I turn to God and His Word (aka spiritual food) instead of cakes when things don’t according to plan. And even though I still have a sweet tooth and often scarf down food, I can stop when I’ve had enough, and my diet overall is much healthier.
So that’s my ‘secret’: I no longer follow the ‘see-food diet’. Oh, and I embrace clothes with plenty of stretch!
Trenery Dress // Vintage Earrings & Scarf // Michael Kors Bag // Habbot Heels